It's not a fashion statementI think you've all noticed (sounds like I'm talking to 40 people or something) that I haven't been very active here lately. The stuff that I've recently uploaded wasn't finished (and it still isn't), and I haven't commented a lot. I'm starting to get tired of deviantArt. I'm starting to get tired of drawing. It doesn't feel like I've progressed at all. If anything, it feels like I'm getting worse. I'm not creative at all anymore, I'm rarely inspired, and when I am, I feel that my limited skills aren't enough to achieve what I have in mind. Nothings ever good enough for me, I'm rarely satisfied with anything I draw, and when I am, I just have to look at what I drew a few days later and wonder what the hell I was thinking.
I used to be more positive before, I used to think that I shouldn't compare myself so much, that I could become just as good as anyone else here. But either I lack the talent, or I lack the will.
So, to put it shortly; I'm thinking of leaving this site. For good, probably. I'd miss Brandy a lot, since we never talk on msn... But other than her, I'm not exactly leaving much behind.
I might change my mind, but at the moment, I doubt it.
Tired
Devious Comments
Don't worry hun, you've just got a simple case of artblock.
Honestly, I think your art is amazing! And I'm not just saying it to be nice, I'm being honest. I love your style. It's realism and I think that each one of your works is a true piece of art.
Sometimes we feel that our art is crap, it's normal. That means we're human and not "perfect imps". What I do each day is draw something, anything. Whether it's an eye, or a dog paw. Even if I'm not doing a great job necessarily, I still work at it.
And yes, I am saying this so you won't leave DA. I think you have great potential. If you really want to excel you need to sometimes leave your comfort zone, so if you're feeling down about your art, try something completely different.
Plus, you've been pretty busy right now and stress or exhaustion can affect how you draw. Just take things easy, sort through things that are most important, pick up a pencil, draw something and appreciate your work. You deserve it!
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Favorite yaoi pairings: NaruSasu, KakaIru.
Favorite het pairings (if it ends up that way): NaruSaku, SasuKarin.
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I do know that I have to challenge myself, yet I still don't. Talking about this makes me feel sad, because drawing is yet another thing I'm not good enough at. It makes me feel so f'cking average, to be honest.
I remember when I began drawing a lot, when I had an account over at Elfwood. I just drew what I wanted to draw, I thought it was really pretty and everything. And I think I progressed quite a lot. I think it was because I didn't quite realise how bad I was, I didn't feel limited, I just created what I wanted to create.
It sounds dramatic, but dA probably has destroyed all that. Now I just see my limitations, what I can and cannot draw. People don't like to see crap here, I've seen what some people have written at the forums. People like me, that can't draw very well are not allowed to criticize other people's atrwork, because we don't have their talent. We're lowlife. It feels like that sometimes.
But you're right, it has a lot to do with stress, I am busy... I'm not erasing my account or anything, I'm just taking a break from this site. A very long break, probably. Maybe I'll try to paint or something during the months I'll be away, I don't know. I just don't want to be here right now.
You're a really sweet person, Brandy, thank you for your kind words. It means a lot. I'll try to reply to your future lj posts, so that we won't loose contact. I'd miss you.^^
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Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn.
I made up this saying a while ago.
"life is a lot like art. when you pick up your tool, don't expect the outcome to be a masterpiece. start from the basics and then work your way up. Only then will you find that your masterpiece will unwind."
Yeah, corny, I know. I made it for english class.
Another saying that may help you is this, "pain is temporary, quitting is forever".
I'm sorry that I haven't been on MSN. I go on there occasionally, but I've kind of forgotten about it. Plus, our times are different.
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Favorite yaoi pairings: NaruSasu, KakaIru.
Favorite het pairings (if it ends up that way): NaruSaku, SasuKarin.
Check out my photography account~>[link]
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Kiya: Member of =dapride :]
"My mission in life is to cause chaos. It keeps me interested." -Me.
I need to deal with my low self confidence first, if I can.
Oh, it's ok, there is a big time difference, and you're busy with everything too. I guess I'll see you later, then.^^
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Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn.
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Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn.
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Kiya: Member of =dapride :]
"My mission in life is to cause chaos. It keeps me interested." -Me.
Sort some of the things you need to sort out.
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Favorite yaoi pairings: NaruSasu, KakaIru.
Favorite het pairings (if it ends up that way): NaruSaku, SasuKarin.
Check out my photography account~>[link]
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