I'm free! Well, kind of, anyway. I am going to work this summer as well. I have mixed feelings about that. I'm lucky to have a job at all, because of the current situation, and it's good to earn some money and have something to do, but at the same time, work is usually really boring and stressful with lots of responsibility.

Anyway, good news is that I can finally become active here on dA again! Summer holidays began today, I had a "goodbye dinner" with my class and our mentor at a nice restaurant last night. Our mentor is so sweet, I'm glad she'll be our teacher next school year as well. Then when we had eaten and given the traditional "thank you" gift to our mentor, we all hugged each other and then we left. I miss everyone already. I actually kind of like school these days... we have lots of fun together. But at least we've promised each other that we'll see each other again this summer, with class parties and stuff.

I debated against a class mate yesterday too (about prostitution and a law we have here); it was so much fun and people complimented me afterwards, telling me that I did really well. It felt good to finish this school year like that, doing something I usually hate and fear even though I didn't have to do it. The classroom was really small and my class mate is involved with a political party, too. I felt brave.

And now I feel empty and happy at the same time. Strange, huh?

Since I've been tagged by two people (I'm just that popular), I guess I'd better do this... Right.


1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must put 10 random facts about themselves.
3. Tagged ones will write a journal about these facts.
4. At the end of the post tag 8 more deviants
5. Go to their page telling them they're tagged.
6. No tagging back


1.) I've become very interested in politics and such. So I have a lot of opinions on nearly everything. Beware
2.) I'm coming to America this year! (or that's the plan at least)
3.) As a Swede, I love nature. I would love to live in a city now when I'm young, but I want to raise my kids (if I get any) close to nature.
4.) I'm really bad with children. I don't know what to say to them, so I feel a bit terrified of them sometimes.
5.) I don't have a driver's license, and I'm not planning to get one.
6.) I went to the hairdresser's today. Wohoo!
7.) I have three penpals in NA and one in Poland.
8.) I would eat sushi every week if I could afford it.
9.) I think that watching Astrid Lingren films is the best medicine when you're sick.
10.) I'll probably study English in England after school, before uni.^^


I tag everyone! Wohoo!

Guess who's back! Yeah, that's right, I am! Maybe I'll show you some of my new stuff soon, when I have time to scan it. Been working on my painting skills, yo. So, what have I been up to, you ask. Nothing special, really. I've only been doing stuff like homework, party, party, homework... And soon I'm gonna party some more. And kiss some more boys. I've come to the realisation that I don't have much time before I turn 20 (OMG O___O) so I just really need catch up and party since I haven't partied much before. The only good thing about turning 20 is that I'll finally be able to buy alcohol legally (in Sweden you can drink when you're 18 in bars and stuff but you can't buy alcohol from the stores). But I won't turn 20 until next year, so no panic yet.

So, this place has changed quite a bit. Do you like it? I think the profile page looks nicer. I haven't looked around that much, but it seems like there haven't been any radical changes since, uh, September?

What have you been up to, people?

it's a fucking deathwish.

I think you've all noticed (sounds like I'm talking to 40 people or something) that I haven't been very active here lately. The stuff that I've recently uploaded wasn't finished (and it still isn't), and I haven't commented a lot. I'm starting to get tired of deviantArt. I'm starting to get tired of drawing. It doesn't feel like I've progressed at all. If anything, it feels like I'm getting worse. I'm not creative at all anymore, I'm rarely inspired, and when I am, I feel that my limited skills aren't enough to achieve what I have in mind. Nothings ever good enough for me, I'm rarely satisfied with anything I draw, and when I am, I just have to look at what I drew a few days later and wonder what the hell I was thinking.

I used to be more positive before, I used to think that I shouldn't compare myself so much, that I could become just as good as anyone else here. But either I lack the talent, or I lack the will.

So, to put it shortly; I'm thinking of leaving this site. For good, probably. I'd miss Brandy a lot, since we never talk on msn... But other than her, I'm not exactly leaving much behind.

I might change my mind, but at the moment, I doubt it.

But it's not a normal day 'cause it's my birthday today, hurray hurray hurray! Hahaha, that song even works in English! XD

Ett fyrfaldigt leve? I actually think it's rather interesting about the differences between a birthday song in English and one in Swedish... I only know one in English though, haha! Are there any more than the usual "Happy Birthday to you?"

There's one song in Swedish that's pretty long if you sing the full version of it. Yes, may she live, yes may she live, yes may she live a hundred years... then there's a slight change to the text, and after that you start describing all the ways to kill her when she's 100 years old! XD And when you cheer, you cheer four times, and say "A four fold cheer for -name-". She lives: Hurrah hurrah hurrah hurrah!

I'm tired.